The past 8 days - sept 2008

hi there

during the past 8 days (sept 2-9), i had gone thru a very tough spiritual journey.

it will not be easy for me to relate, but i think i will not be doing my friends and family any justice if i dont honestly tell you how i travelled this journey and the various thoughts that came to my mind.

while trying to write down the process, i suddenly remembered my experience in 2001.  it was published in the indigo magazine in march 2002.  i am attaching this experience called "Turning Poison into Medicine" to present a clearer picture to you. 

what i had not mentioned in this experience was, when i was in the operation theatre, the gynae took a photoshowing that there were three more polyps in my body, but she did not remove them because of my bleeding.  i chanted and chanted for the polyps to subside.  three months later, when i went back to hong kong, i saw a very trustworthy gynae.  she did a thorough scan and told me there were no polyps.  she even gave me a photo to prove.  i still of the two photos in hand.  incredible, isnt it?

in that experience, i had written the following:

1) the best way to fulfill our wishes is to do kosen rufu.

2) the polyps in my body were caused by worries, anger and grudges

3) to be able to walk eat, and sleep at ease is already a great benefit

4) i should constantly remind myself of all the blessings and try to

    be happy, even when confronted with problems

5) i should have absolute faith in the gohonzon

it is very very clear to me that i have not totally learned my lesson and carried out the above.

Life is a learning process, we are here to learn the things we need to learn, if we dont, life will just  continue throwing lessons to you, one tougher than the last, until you learn.

i am going to attach my last weeks journey on a separate attachment called "A Test of Faith".

cheers

lydia