hi there
you wouldnt believe it 
!! in less than two weeks, more than five times, and in different occasions, i had been "fiercely scolded" and blamed by differently people, either directly face to face, or indirectly, or thru emails, etc by friends, very close friends, colleagues and family members, for things i had not done, or was innocent.
!! in less than two weeks, more than five times, and in different occasions, i had been "fiercely scolded" and blamed by differently people, either directly face to face, or indirectly, or thru emails, etc by friends, very close friends, colleagues and family members, for things i had not done, or was innocent.
needless to say, i was very very very angry. 
this morning, when i woke up, i found that i was STILL bothered. i took a walk for half an hour, came home, sat down, had breakfast and had a moment of peace.
during this moment of peace, i started reflecting on what is happening these days? you know, since i have started my buddhist practice, i had ALWAYS come across nice people, and it was very out of the ordinary that i encountered these recent unpleasant events.
the answers i got on reflecting was:
1) since feb, i had spent almost most of my time helping andrew in his surgery, in the design, decoration, nursing, secretarial, etc etc., i was totally exhausted and my energy level and life condition was very low. needless to say, I ATTRACTED all sorts of negativities towards me.
2) even those who deliberately wanted to bring me down, they would not succeed because i am ALWAYS protected by the gohonzon. why should i be bothered?
with the above answers, i feel much much better. i am now going to chant, then start packing for my up coming trip, and begin to relax and enjoy life. 
cheers
lydia
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