today after cleaning the buddhist centre in sydney i was driving home in my corolla, (which i got in jan after extensive research, with the help of wendy (my neice), sid (her boyfriend) and kevin, my son, on other models, ie honda, mazda, suzuki, subaru, mercedes) and i found that i enjoyed every minute of the drive. the car is smooth, great handling, its got GPS, bluetooth, cruise control, etc. and is sooo comfortable. for the first time, i feel that driving is a pleasure and i drove very slowly, listening to the beaufiful singing by 'the three tenors'.
looking back, i had always wanted a small car but i always landed on bigger and more flashy cars such as mercedes, BMWs, and a jacquar.
to be honest, i did not enjoy these cars, and the jacquar is so big i found it hard to handle , especially during parking, banging onto here and there and kept damaging it. so why did i get something which i did not enjoy? the answer is simple: vanity. i wanted to look good in the eyes of other people.
thru out my years of buddhist practice, i have come to know myself better,about what i want in life. i used to love sparkling evening clothes, high society parties, diamonds, fur coats. i tried very hard , i got them, but i was not happy.
now everyday i wear jeans, sneakers, eat simple food and drive a corolla, and i am immensely happy. jewels, flashing cars and clothes are not in my agenda any more. yeah, thanks to my chanting nam myo ho renge kyo and my buddhist practice, i am much clearer about what i want, and i am much happier.
yeah, what i look to other people, and what other people think of me is not important, what is important is that i should be happy with myself, and try to make other people happy.
cheers
lydia
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