cannot move (寸步難行)

hi there

just want to let you know what happened.  it is until now that i can sit for a little longer to send this email.

two days after i returned to sydney, i hurt my back, it was sooooo bad that i could not stand, sit, walk nor move.  kevin immediately came home from work and virtually had to carry me to a chinese accupuncture doctor who gave me all necessary treatments and medicine, and said i had to lie down all the time to recover.  today is the 7th day.

it was a real blessing that kevin did not have to work on sat and he spent the whole of friday afternoon and sat to cater to my every needs, bringing me water, food, bread and straw (because i cannot sit up and drink).  andrew bought me dinner and made me breakfast so i had all the care i needed.

at times when the pain was really bad, i tried to remember a song sung in the 'song of music':

'snow flakes that stay on my nose and eye lashes, silver white winters that melt into springs, these are a few of my favorite things....; when the dogs bite, when the bees sting, when i am feeling said, i simply remember my favorite things, and then i dont feel, so bad....' yeah i started to think of things that will amuse myself and then i remember what was said about my grandfather, who was feared by us all, it was about his behaviour:

行路輕輕, 坐落驚驚, 講嘢細聲, 鬧人大聲

'walk lightly, sit cautiously, talk softly, and scold loudly'.

so now i am exactly like my grandfather and whenever i recall this, i started to laugh.

anyway, although my movements are restricted, i did not have a bad time at all, i spent all my time sleeping, watching TV and eating, and REST, which is what i need most.

looking back, since last aug, i went to vancouver to settle ryan, then toronto to settle my sister, back to sydney, the tour shanghai etc, back to sydney, back to hong kong, backi to sydney, back to hongkong, hokkaido, hongkong and sydney.

i spent every minute of the day doing things for myself and others and neglected my own body, therefore ......

i also thought how fortunate i am to have this happen in sydney when kevin and andrew can drive me to the doctor and take care of me, if this happened in hong kong, or canada, or ...., then it would be horrible.

i was told long time ago that:  if you chant nam myo ho renge kyo and trust the gohonzon, your will still have problems, however they will come at a time when you are most capable of handling them.

i am not going to translate this into chinese because i need to lie down now.  i hope my chinese friends will be able to read the message behind.  or, maybe i will translate this when i am better.

cheers

lydia

只想讓你知道發生了什麼。因為直至現在，我才可以坐一會兒發送此郵件。

回到了悉尼後兩天，我傷害了我的背部，這是非常糟糕，我不能站立，坐下，走路也動彈不了。Kevin立即下班回家，帶我到看中國的針灸醫生。醫生給了我一切必要的治療和藥品，並且說我要躺下直至康復。今天已是第7天。

它是一個真正的祝福，因為Kevin星期六不用上班，所以他整個星期五下午都伴著我，並滿足我的每一個需求，也把我的水，食物，麵包和飲管（因為我不能坐起來和飲水）。Andrew給我買了晚餐，讓我吃早餐，所以我擁有我需要的關心。

有時，當非常疼痛，我想記起在一首歌曲唱的歌曲音樂'：

'雪花是留在我的鼻子和眼睛的睫毛，銀白色的冰雪融化，春天來臨，這些都是一些我喜愛的東西....;當狗咬傷，當蜜蜂蜇，當我感覺說，我只要想起我最喜歡的東西，然後我不覺得，壞....'是的，我開始想的東西，會逗我，然後我記得說了什麼關於我的祖父，誰是我們大家擔心，這是對他的行為：

行路輕輕, 坐落驚驚, 講嘢細聲, 鬧人大聲

 

所以現在我完全像我的祖父，每當我想起這，我開始笑了。

無論如何，雖然我的行動受到限制，這都不是太壞，因為我一直都在睡覺，看電視和吃飯，休息，而這正是我最需要的。

回頭看，自去年八月，我去了溫哥華安定Ryan，然後我妹妹定居多倫多，回到悉尼，上海等地參觀，回悉尼，回到香港，又回到悉尼，回到香港，北海道，香港和悉尼。

我每日都把每一分鐘花在自己和他人的事情上，而忽略了自己的身體，所以......

我還認為我是多麼的幸運，因為這種情況是發生在悉尼。特別是當 Kevin和Andrew可以帶我去看醫生和照顧我，如果這是發生在香港或加拿大或....,那麼這將是可怕的。

很久以前，有人告訴我說：如果你唱南無妙法蓮華經和信任御本尊，你將仍然有問題，但它們會在你最有能力處理它們的時候出現。

我現在不翻譯成中文，因為我需要躺下了。我希望我的中國朋友能看到這封電郵。或者待我好一點才把它翻譯過來。