my dear friends and family
since jan. 1, 2013, i have been reflecting on what happened last year. 2012 had not been easy year for me and i would like to share with you what i had gone thru:
my heath
i had had a number of issues with my health last year. my stomach hurt and my heart pulpitation had drained away all my energy. i could not even gather enough energy to speak. visits to medical and chinese herbalist were not conclusive.
everyday i chanted to the gohonzon to have good health and energy and i start to walk 30 min every morning (i will send you a separate email on this interesting experience). i am glad to say that now i am feeling much much better.
over xmas holidays i worked for andrew as his dental nurse. on dec. 31st we had 17 emergency patients, i assisted andrew by chairside, at the same time answering phones, attending to the reception, payments, sterilization and cleaning; on xmas day we had dinner party at home for about 8 people, i baked a turkey and ham, everybody had a good time; last sunday we had another chinese dinner party for 8, both andrew and i cooked about 8 dishes and i had the energy to handle all of the above.
andrew
andrew had had a lot of staff problems, we had a lot of arguments becase we had different ways of handling things. he has a habit of contradicting whatever i say and i was very very much aggravated. one day the argument was soooo bad that i got really upset , i slammed the door, walked out of our house and drove away.
i then treated myself to a nice dinner, a good movie, afterwards i stayed in my car chanting, and i found that i was not angry anymore, however, i had to make andrew know that he cannot go on this way, i was all prepared to move out and stay with my son the next day.
however on my return home, i turned on my TV and watched my favorite program, then andrew came to me and started to tell me that he behaved the way he did because he did not know how to respond to my opinion (i gathered that because he is the oldest son, a dentist and his own boss, he NEVER has to listen to anyone), he made a suggestion that, in order to improve our relationship, in future,
whatever i say, he will say 'YES', hahahaha, this really solves our problems. since then we do not seem to have much arguments because every time he had that critical look on his face in response to my comments, i would remind him to say 'YES" and that would stop any fights. hehehehe
my important target
early last year, feb. 2012, andrew and i had a very very important target that we wanted to achieve. since then a few things happened which made us think that we will be achieving it. however that did not materialize. andrew got a bit disheartened, i was not disappointed though, because with my faith in the gohonzon and my chanting, i KNOW that we will succeed.
i chanted 1 1/2 hours everyday, in the meantime i was guided to do what was necessary. a couple of months ago i also chanted for a xmas gift: to be able to achieve this target before xmas.
i am very pleased to say that on Dec. 21, i received this superb xmas gift!
looking back, the things that happened, although seemingly not very satisfying, were to help us prepare our way to succeed, doing things that were necessary which we would not otherwise have done.
all in all, 2012 started off difficult, but ended very pleasing and happy. i really would like to add that when we chant for something, initially we may not seem to be getting it, please do not be disappointed, keep chanting, keep going and this thing is just round the corner.
with this email, i again wish everyone a very happy, fulfilling, healthy and satisfying 2013.
cheers